I am currently hitting the pause button on my life, if you will. What am I talking about you ask? Well, I have been so busy the past eight years of my life, constantly going somewhere or doing something, constantly struggling with something or making vital decisions. I’ve put in an estimated 116,800 hours of work at McDonald’s to support myself and help my boyfriend as best as possible to pay bills and get though school. I’ve been busy having anxiety attacks but also laughing attacks, I’ve been busy staying up late studying and writing papers. I’ve been busy trying to maintain a relationship with my boyfriend, with my friends and with my family. I’ve been hitting the play button, the fast forward button, the stop button (only because I fell asleep for a few hours at night) but I always neglected the pause button until now…I am sitting here, thinking about my life. I literally (metaphorically) pressed the pause button right at this moment in my life. I am thinking about the struggles I have overcome, the goals I have accomplished, the people I have met and the amazing opportunities I have gained. For the first time in a long time, I am so incredibly happy and so incredibly grateful to be where I am at now at this moment in time. When I was fourteen years old, I remember thinking about how I could not wait to get older, how I could not wait to have a career, a family and to be established. These were the goals I had for myself from 14 to the time I was 17 years old:
-Save up enough money to put a down payment on a car by the time I am 16 years old
*bought a brand new Ford Focus
-Pay off my car
*Paid it off 3 years later
– Meet a boy, fall in love (if it was meant to happen, it would happen) and then this happened:
-Work as much as possible to save money and pay bills throughout my educational career
*worked all. the.time. Special thank you to the man you see above for playing a huge part in supporting me while I was going through my required unpaid internship.
-Graduate high school, then immediately attend college
*Check!
-Along the way, find true friends.
*These people have brought so much to my life, have held me when I have cried, have made me pee my pants laughing so hard, have been the best study buddies, the best supporters, and are truly one of the main reasons I am alive today. I love every single one of you.
-Earn a Bachelor’s Degree
*25 MORE DAYS!!!*
-Find a job in my degree before I graduate with my Bachelor’s Degree
-Pursue my Master’s Degree
..And of course I couldn’t have done all of this without the love and support of my family. A HUGE thank you to all of you for your unconditional love, encouragement, and motivation to keep me going! I love all of you so, so much.
I am SO unbelievably excited to say I have been able to accomplish all of those things…and even better with a great guy by my side and a wonderful family!!! Now, I wouldn’t wish a 40 hour plus a week work schedule along with going to school full-time and your boyfriend doing the same thing..it is not the healthiest for a relationship let me tell you, but in 25 days, when my boyfriend and I get to walk at graduation, it will be so worth it in the end. And in 23 days, we will have been together for four years. Four hard, stressful, but amazing and wonderful four years. We will have survived through it all, together! I have an amazing job where my passion lies, surrounded my fantastic people whom I work with, and are more than willing to be flexible with me as I pursue my Master’s Degree in Social Work…what more can a girl ask for?! I don’t mean at all to sound conceited whatsoever, or to brag on myself, I just wanted to inspire my readers to take a moment to pause on life. To remember that ANYTHING is possible. It takes a lot of work, like, a LOT of work, maybe some blood, sweat and definitely a bunch of tears-but it is so worth it in the end. I wish I could spread this feeling around to everyone in the world, because nothing feels better than to finally be in the light at the end of the tunnel, and shine.
Find your passion, and when you feel a sense of belonging, you know you are on the right path. Set goals, make a plan, and commit yourself to accomplishing those goals. It takes time, and it takes a lot of work, but it is so worth it in the end.
With all of that being said, Life is truly beautiful.
xoxo, Carissa
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